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The way we are...

The way we said our last goodbye
I don't remember seeing you cry.
To me, each second seemed like a year.
You didn't feel the same, but maybe I wasn't there.

It took time but I found my feet.
I tried to reason why, but never could see.
You tried to talk and I turned away,
Pushing too hard and stumbling down darker ways

And then it wasn't about you anymore.
I saw people around me who could take no more.
Building walls too high to scale,
Snatching my bricks, they pulled me awake.

By then you had already given up.
Turns out, it was a good thing the jig was up.
After all we had been through,
You still let go so soon.

Although each day feels like a fresh new start
It still feels like we were never meant to part
Yet, here we are now and I can do nought
But see how it turns out...


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